I told her...
If only I am to be found in the sun again.
To feel wet unrelenting upon my neck
To ache in the cold moans of a world so wet
Felt leaves of color all around my invisibility
Leaves that colored me once more in my serenity
I groaned about the times it was wet and hot
And in those moments I yearn for a drier spot
Ached for my bones to stop aching in remembrance
Begging to arrive a soft winter solstice
And I remember three years…
Three full turns since that last time it crept
The lone, full winter on my door it stepped
Waved hello, and told me so, save heart in its cold breath
Icicles cast upon my face
With pain of knives held in grace
White dusty across my eyes
And a bleeding hymn through the trees cries
And wondered, how does the world change so
Even as I descend from a plane into snow
Hearing language unlike mine
To feel wrapped in care like your tree up n’ twine
And then winter took my hand and told me
Take heart in that change, hold you gently
I cried and smiled in her arms
Asleep I’ve fallen, skin twitching, white dust settled in the barn
Of the cool of my dreams
I walk slowly in the quiet, feet snowed at the seams
For as it snows, it surely does sow
Winter flowers made of spring
As creatures wail through the woods
They also laugh over firewood
That which we built together
Sowed hearts in bleeding tears together
Over flames of new
We as creatures twinkle our eyes in the sunrise
And dance by the firelight into twilight
And winters breath laughs along the blue haze
Reassure as I gaze into gray
Remind that I find a new time in skies coldly razed
In fact, that we are born around this time, humans ablaze
I heard her breath as she let go
Told me “It’ll be ok, you’ll know"
“With rain comes pain to grow”
Spring whispered in my ear, where flowers she sowed.
With these flowers in my ear I took haste
Kissed pollen and warm eyes embraced
With mine own.
I blinked and spring had gone
Left a trail, had colors galore, with her energy I’d gone numb.
I fell in love in summer and never stepped out
Summer kissed my face and I shout out
Sent me on my way with her wings
Took my tired body up upon her back,
Bled new life in me
Grew in my mind new anemones
Of safety, warmth, knowledge and the strive
Blanketed, musky scents, raw dirt teaching me more of life
She taught me how to kiss my hands,
Hands amassed in mud
Told me to love those tear glands
Those I once snuffed and shoved
Fed me with starred night skies and taught me knew routes
And at the end of the starred night, "I want to feel winter again” smoothed out of my mouth
Knowingly smiled and lay me down again
Stared into my veins and asked me how I felt in the end
"Forever”, I told summer.
But I must find myself in the stars again.
She sent me down to my love’s eyes once more.
And in new snows of life, with “I love you”, opened a door
Encrusted in snow, I had not seen before.
And with fire we breathed out.
