There’s just something about you that I can’t get enough of. I know how bad you are for me, yet I keep wanting to go back to you time and time again. I’ve tried giving you up. I really did. I gave you up for Lent and let me tell you, it wasn’t easy, at all. It took a lot of will power and personal constraint to hold me back from you. There were so many days I almost slipped and filled my cup up with you. But, I somehow lasted 40 days from you, but now you’ve reentered my life. Many people would say it’s a bad thing, but you bring me a sort of happiness nothing else can. It seems like I may have a toxic relationship with you, but I really just can’t get enough of you no matter what. You never seem to let me down, except maybe when you’re flat. I even like you when you’re warm.
Everyone always tells me how bad you are for me, but I just try to tone it out. I know the health risks, but there’s something about you that keeps me coming back. I’ve tried walking away from you time and time again and trying new things but it’s not the same. Maybe one day, I’ll step back and reevaluate you.
I can never stop thinking about you. I want you with lunch, dinner and even breakfast. I must admit I have had you with breakfast before, and I’m not ashamed. I want you late at night when I’m lying in bed before I go to sleep. I want you when I’m sitting in class. I want you constantly. I don’t think there will ever be a time I don’t want or crave you. The 40 days I went without you really tested our relationship, but no matter what, I’ll always want you and come back to you.
Although I love you so much, I think we need to start spending some more time apart. I’m not breaking up with you nor am I even saying we need to take a break because I know that isn’t possible. It’s just I know I should have you less. Maybe I can start with having you only once a day instead of multiple times a day. Then I’ll try every other day. Eventually maybe only once a week. Please know that this isn’t goodbye but a see you later. You and I both know I can’t stay away no matter how much I try to stay away or how much others try to keep me away.
I’m going to end this by thanking you for all the time we’ve had together and by saying how much I appreciate those sweet, sweet times. You are perfect in any and every situation. I love you, and I think a part of me always will love you. After all, you are my guilty pleasure.
