When I first watched "Grey's Anatomy" and heard Christina Yang say, "You are my person," I immediately had someone in mind. The one person I went to with everything. Every triumph, every heartbreak, and every mundane thing in between. She was right there. But as time moves on, so do we. Sometimes, we lose our person. We lose the one that is always there for us and who understands us better than anyone, including ourselves.
Though they are still there physically, it feels like they are a million miles away. The space between you that was full of laughter and jokes has gone to still silence. A silence that shows how much you two have grown apart. The time you used to have telling the person every detail about your life has become small talk and uncomfortable conversation. Everyone is entitled to change. It is a part of growing up and a part of life, but it is hard to see the change pull you two apart instead of together.
You notice the change when they aren't the first one you want to tell when something amazing happens to you. Instead, you go to someone else and bore them with your news. You notice how you don't do the things you used to do like watch movies until all hours of the night. You notice how you are becoming closer to other people and not hanging out that much with them anymore. All these little things add up and soon your life and their life are miles away from each other.
Sometimes, you wonder if you will ever fall back into where you once were. You try and try but the smallest things that have changed look big and feel big. A night in together to watch a show doesn't have the rhythm it once did, so you sit in awkward silence waiting for the show to end. It's okay if it never goes back to the way things were. Though letting go is the hardest part, it is the most necessary part. Keeping those memories is okay because that was that person then and not now. You can't just cast those memories aside because you drifted apart.
In time, you will find another person. It might be a new friend, a friend you had forever and became closer to, or it could end up being your mom. As the years go by, your person will change as you will change. But if you are lucky enough to find a person that grows with you, then you found the Christina to your Meredith.