When you left me was the hardest part of my life. When I got the call, I realized I would never see you smiling again, and that I’d never hear your laugh. The things we used to do would become harder and harder to do, but I’ll get through them. Even though you left me, I’ve grown.

I realized to live every day like it's my last.

Losing you made me realize that every day is a gift, which is literally why it’s called the present. In reality, our time on this Earth is extremely short and every day should be lived to the fullest. You taught me this; instead of dreading each day without you, you taught me to live for you, and that is what I’ve been doing. I try new things every day, and I thank you silently each day for the happiness you have given me. This lesson also helps me make sure that the people that I hold close know how much I love them because tomorrow is never a promise.

I learned to not take people for granted.

My first reaction when you left was guilt. I could have texted you more, or called, or come to visit even though you were so far away. I should have come home to see you more and I shouldn’t have taken you for granted. You were mine, all mine, and I never thought you’d go. It’s almost like an awful dream that I’ll wake up from, but life isn’t like that and reality is a bit harsher than that. I took you for granted, but you taught me to never do that to others. Now I am thankful for everyone in my life. Because of you, I treat loved ones with gratitude, and I’m more appreciative of everyone in my life.

I learned my independence.

I had no clue what to do when you left. I wanted to give up everything we used to do together, but I knew that wouldn’t make me happy. For a while I didn’t go out with friends, I didn’t go out with my boyfriend, and I didn’t even want to continue going to school every day. When you left, I felt alone. I felt like I’d always have a void of unhappiness in my heart, but you made me realize I had to get through it. I had to find my own happiness because my happiness comes from within myself. You made me realize my independence, and I’ll never be more grateful for that gift.

I am you.

Everyone knew how close we were, and really we still are. That bond will never go away. I realized through all the lessons you taught me that you live through me each day. By utilizing these lessons, and striving to do my best, I honor you. You were more than a best friend; you are my role model, the love of my life, and my greatest treasure. I may not be the best, but I definitely have become a better person because of everything you taught me.