Everyone who has seen Grey's Anatomy knows that Christina was Meredith's "person". Someone's person is there with them through thick and thin; they understand the tears and pain without a word said. A person is someone that you have an emotional connection with and you can't put your finger on why you connect so much. Your worries, anxieties, and fears that follow you around in the presence of others don't exist when you're around your person. When you have a person you can't explain why you connect and why they understand… you just do, and they just make sense.
Almost everyone will have a person at some point in their life. Some will be lucky enough to find a person that will never leave them… but life happens and a person can be lost.
I found my person at a very young age. My person understood me in a way that no one else ever has, and probably ever will. She always knew when I didn't understand a concept in school and would come up with fun games that would allow me to grasp the problems. She didn't need to see my tears to know when my heart was crying and would hold my hand when words weren't enough.
But just like many others, I have lost my person. I loved my person very deeply… and I still do, so despite my resentment, I will not say who she is. I will, however, say that the pain of losing your person is indescribable. It's like being hit by a car on a bridge and falling into the water. The pain hits you hard and sudden and causes you to fall into a river of emotion where only you can keep yourself afloat. The confusion in your heart makes you drown in your sadness, but you know you need to find happiness so you kick to find air. It's tiring and there are many times that you don't want to put your effort in anymore, especially when you think about how easy staying afloat would be if you had your person by your side.
I've come to the point in my life where I have reached the shore, but I still dip my toes in the water. It's difficult to kick your way out of the ocean of emotion, but once you've reached the end you can finally see the bigger picture. I will never stop loving my person, but I will not allow myself to be consumed by sadness and confusion any longer. I have no problem feeling what we once had, but that's all I will ever do... is feel what was there.
When you lose your person you are lost, but eventually, you will find your way. That person will never leave your memory and the love for them... it will never go.