I only feel shame when saying it:

That I was pro-life.

Not taking into consideration the underage girls who have to suffer through unsafe, illegal, unsanitary abortions, because she's currently carrying the baby of the 60-year-old-man who raped her. Or the baby of someone she doesn't know.

The most sickening thing I ever heard while looking through a Pro-Life pamphlet was the sentence:

"In the case of rape, it is not the baby's fault. This baby is still a gift from God."

It was that sentance that twisted my stomach and made me feel sick. That my heart hurt for the young girls who are unable to get the procedure, having to endure the trauma, and dirty feeling of that pregnancy for 40 weeks- then the trauma of delivering the baby.

It is not the mother's fault.

And she shouldn't have to endure that. Imagine yourself in their shoes, would you be willing to do that? To offer yourself up as an incubator?

Woman are worth more than that. Anybody is worth more than that. We are not machines to be plugged into a wall for this "Gift from God" to be grown.

Do you really think she will love her pregnancy? That it will be the joyful experience it's supposed to be? Think of the depression that will follow her during her pregnancy and after... what if it's all too much and she takes her own life?

Calling a baby conceived from the barbaric and evil actions of rape and sexual assault a "Gift from God" is unworldly.

I understand peoples opinions, and I also understand mine. That nobody should have to endure that trauma.

I believe that life is a miracle, but I also believe that a decision like that is personal.

I don't know if the God that I believe in is the Catholic God anymore. But I know that my God wouldn't do that.

I am resigning from my Pro-Life connections and while I still will attend church, and have friends with differing opinions- I will stick to what I believe. And it will be ok.

There is help. And more girls should know that.