I feel like my heart hasn't been one in a while. Every time it shatters, I pick up all the pieces, but I guess the glue just isn't strong enough to hold it together. I don't know how many times one's heart can break until is permanently broken.
Too many people have told me long distance doesn't work, so when you asked, I shut you down quickly. I was scared of what could happen when we're 600 miles apart. Even though I am the one who said "we can't be together right now," I couldn't bear to hear the words that left your mouth. I would never expect you to wait for me, but I didn't know it could be that easy and fast for you to move on. You said you're "in love with me," yet it wasn't months or even weeks for you to be kissing someone else. It took 3 days. That's all. How can I trust someone who still says those three words, but shows different actions. Was what we had even real? The way you moved on. That was quick.
"Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine?" (5 Seconds of Summer).
My playlist has been repeating the same songs for days now. It usually goes like this: High Hopes, Somebody to You, Amnesia, Happier, and the one that takes me home, the one you said you changed: The Reason.
The letters you wrote, the little stuff you did, the hope you gave me, all of it feels like it never happened anymore. I would say, "People don't change," but you would continue and say, "but they learn to improve." You would finish my sentences like you knew what was going inside of my mind. It was fun until you stopped and questioned what was actually going inside of my head, believing I wasn't thinking about you.
I guess it's time for me to let you go. However, you already left. I don't understand how you are fine.
"Cause I'm not fine at all."