It feels like just yesterday we were having two day long sleepovers, our weekly sushi dinner dates and roadtripping to our newest adventure spot to cliff jump. While things have changed a little bit since high school when we could just drop whatever we were doing to drive to each other, I need you to know what hasn’t. Although we all are far from home going to college, what breaks my heart the most on a daily basis is how far we are from each other. Each one of us is in pursuit if following our dreams at different colleges and that’s awesome and all but the fact that I have to buy a plane ticket to be in the same state as you is a lot harder than I imagined it would be.
In the beginning, it didn’t even seem real. I left, we all left, everyone was just trying to figure out how to swim instead of sink. The first few weeks flew by but when I entered month two of being away, I got lonely. Sure I made a lot of friends, and so did you, but no one could replace or fill your shoes. I wasn’t even looking for someone to replace you because I know that’s not possible. I was lucky enough to find best friends in high school that I am strongly certain will be standing by my side on my wedding day (that is if I ever get married, of course). But as things started to get hectic at school, I always come back to the group message because, although I know you are always just a phone call or text away, it’s just not the same.
We all have new friends and new drama. No amount of texts could help you fully understand "how much of a “b***h she was to me! Like how could someone even be so rude?!" I know we try to understand and be there to give advice to eachother but this isn’t high school anymore, we are all slowly starting to have our own lives with our own people and drama and excitement… I couldn’t be happier that we are able to do that. Branch out and start to live. But of course there are days when I wish it was like the “old days,” but when I really think about it, how cool is that? We are growing and expanding you’re new friends are mine and mine are yours. I know how much people must love you because I know how much I do, how could anyone else not?! And I know you’re new friends must be unreal, if they are anything like me ;).
But in all seriousness, I worry about you everyday. Getting a call or text that you are sad or sick or miss home makes me sad. Getting a call or text that you are happy or in love again or excited does the same to me. You are all the most incredible people I have ever met in my life and this is just another part of it. Being able to be there for each other even if I am thousands of miles away… When they say distance makes the heart grow fonder they meant between you and your best friends, the real loves of your life. Because when is all said in done and we graduate, the odds we are all in the same place again for longer than winter break are slim. But when you find people like I did, that time and space difference means nothing. The one phone call is all you need. One day when I’m the “cool aunt” to your kids, that one phone call will be all the difference. And when you have incredible best friends like I do, you won’t even be able to imagine all the cool places we will be able to visit on another at!
Coming from a girl who has a hard time missing anything, let alone people, I am lucky enough to be able to miss girls like them. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without these lovely ladies. How lucky I am so have something so hard to say goodbye to?
