A letter to my younger siblings
I miss you more than you could ever imagine
I brag about you guys all the time. I tell people about how intelligent, talented and beautiful each of you are. Though I used to dislike you most of the time, I am more proud of you than you could ever imagine. Being your older sister has not always been an easy thing to do. I used to hate to have to “set the example” for you. I thought that it was not fair that I was the oldest, but now I realize it is the best feeling in the world because I have three people I can look after and protect. I have three mini best friends that without a doubt, can always make me smile.
You guys are my favorite people in this world. You have made me laugh, cry, jealous and angrier than I could ever imagine. You are my entire world. Being away from you is not easy and it is not something that I enjoy doing. When I left for college I had always imagined what I missed most would be my friends, my favorite hometown coffee shop, or the cat…spike. I never thought what I would miss most is the three of you. College is one of the best times of my life but it means I have to miss out on some of the best of yours.
You are all at that age where you are playing sports, going to school dances, and growing into young adults. I want you to know I HATE missing those moments. I hate that I am not there are every single football game to cheer you on. I hate that I can’t sit at your terribly boring golf matches and drive around on the golf carts after. I hate that I can’t see you in your cheer uniform and watch you with all of your friends. I hate that I am not there when you have a fight with your friends so I can make you feel better. I hate that every day when you come home from school you can’t tell me how your day was because I am not there. It makes me sad to think that I cannot pick you up after your first day of high school and that I won’t be there when you drive your first car.
I want all of you to know that just because I am not there does not mean I am not thinking about you and it doesn’t meant that I don’t care. I promise that I am always thinking about you. I promise I am always just one phone call away. I promise that if you need me to I will drop everything and drive home. Most importantly I promise you that whenever possible I will get you out of trouble with Mom and Dad. You guys are my everything and I would not be the person I am today if it was not for all of you. You push me to make something of myself. You push me to be the best me I can be. You push me to inspire you and to make you proud.
I miss you all. Just know that while I am away at college things remind me of each of you every day. Just know that I am trying to be the good example for you, trying to be a good role model, and trying to give you someone to look up to. I love all of you very much and I hope that you know I am here for you whenever you need me. It is hard being away from you but it makes coming home ten times better because I get to see each of my mini best friends.
