We haven’t lived under the same roof for almost four years now, and you’ve changed tremendously. When I left you were the best definitions of “little brothers” that I could think of. You were always in my business, going into my room uninvited, and you didn’t quite understand the whole “leave me alone” concept. I had no issue at all leaving the two of you at home for nine months out of the year after I graduated high school. It was kind of awesome actually. I no longer needed a passcode on my phone, I didn’t have to worry about sharing the food mom had bought for me, and I never had to worry about you getting into my things anymore. I was perfectly content with the living situation until recently. You’ve both grown up so much, and I feel so many different ways about that fact. I feel like I’ve missed a lot of the little changes because I'm away so much.
I’m so grateful I get to be your sister. I don’t say it enough, but I hope you know how proud I am to call you my brothers. You’re kind of cool now. I will most likely regret saying that later, but it’s true. I catch myself coming home and trying to hang out with you. I miss my friends, but sometimes I just want to hang out with my brothers. Maybe it’s because I miss my childhood, but it’s also because I just miss you both in general when I’m at school. You’re both so funny. I like to think I taught you everything you know, but I have to give you some credit. I try not to show you how truly funny I think you are because I don’t want you beginning to think you’re cooler than me.
If you weren’t already aware, I’ve always felt like the superior, bigger, and older sister until this last year. There’s no hiding the fact that you’re both obnoxiously tall compared to me, so that takes away the bigger-than-you feeling. I also can’t boss you around like I used to because my physical threats just don’t scare you anymore, so that takes away the superior aspect of things. Honestly, that’s a bummer for me.
I can handle no longer being superior in strength and bigger in height as long as you still see me as an older sister who is someone you can look up to. I hope you’re able to see me as someone who set a good example, as someone who will continue looking out for you even when you think you’re too old for that, as someone who has and will continue to be your biggest fan. Most importantly, I hope you're able to see me as someone who will forever be only a phone call away if ever you’re in trouble.
I’m always going to be your older sister. That fact will never change. I just hope you know how honored I feel to get to be your sister. You truly have and are continuing to grow up into the kind, caring, thoughtful and hysterical young men I wish there were more of these days. You keep doing you, and I’ll keep trying to boss you around. I love you both and hope you don’t let this go to your head too much.
