If you don’t know what an “L” is, it’s pretty much a short term for a loss. I have been using this term for a very large portion of 2016 and it is really rare that I ever get a W (opposite of an L, a win..if you didn’t know that either.) I’ve been receiving so many Ls lately that I anticipate an L almost every day. It could be something as small as spilling coffee all over myself or as big as maxing out my credit card. This whole year has been a series of unfortunate events and I’m ready for it to be over. However, I really see no end to my demise. Sucks for me.
So, what has been so bad you might ask? Well, let’s see. I’m transitioning into that phase of “adulting,” so as most of you may have enjoyed your summer, going to the beach, eating ice cream, and swimming, I was slaving my life away to work for a paycheck. I saw no down time and I literally made less than what I believe I should have received. I worked all summer so that I could be somewhat financially stable during the school year, but of course, I had to spend all my money on school supplies. Books, uniforms and other pointless equipment ate my summer savings up so quick that I can barely afford McDonald's chicken nuggets. *Sigh* Therefore, you can say my bank account took a big L. Thousands of savings were diminished in the blink of an eye.. Having no money to spend is sad. Not having money to even pay your bills is even sadder.
And school started in the fall right? Going into my junior year, I knew it was going to be difficult. I’m getting more in depth in my studies and it was obvious that it was going to be no walk in the park. However, two months into school, I never knew it would be THIS stressful. Yes, I’m going into the medical field, so it was expected to be held up to higher standards, but just as we would get use to the system, our instructors think we are able to add more work to our workload every single week that they found out we survived.
I barely sleep as it is and here we are, given more work to do. Just let me pull MORE of my hair out. I think that would be less painful. More work also means more to remember, meaning more test, quizzes, and evaluations. I average about 2-3 midterms per week sometimes and I don’t know who has the TIME to study EVERYTHING? Some of my grades are great, my other grades.. L.
Then, there are just everyday life things that unfortunately happen to me. Just this week, I got my bike stolen, my laptop caught a virus and crashed, and I may have gained a few pounds from stress eating. Why my life is a complete mess? I really don’t know. I don’t understand what I did to deserve these Ls, but apparently I’m being punished for something..
Some of the Ls I receive can be prevented, but other Ls, I just have no control over. I never asked for my bike to be stolen. I never asked for my laptop to just crash on me when I was doing homework. It’s just my bad luck. I guess. One of these days, I hope things will lighten up, but for now, I guess I’ll have to take and suffer from the punches. I’ve been pretty strong these past couple months, so I’m pretty sure I can handle something else. But who knows when I’ll actually break. At this point,I’ve had a million breakdowns. I have cried many tears, but look, I’m still living. So in all seriousness, what’s another L right?
