I'm lucky enough to finally have my depression controlled enough so I seem "normal." Even though I appear fine on the outside, I still struggle with never feeling like I'm doing the right things and failing to live up to the expectations I have set for myself. These lies are things my mind tells me on a daily basis — some more extreme than others — and leave me feeling like I'm always letting people down.
1. You don't fit in anywhere
2. Those girls are way prettier than you
3. Everyone here is smarter than you
4. If you keep acting like that, nobody will take you seriously
5. Stop thinking people actually care about you
6. You aren't worthy of anyone's love
7. Don't talk to them; they don't want to be bothered by you
8. You won't ever amount to anything
9. You aren't trying hard enough
10. You could have done better
Believing these lies has ruined relationships that meant a lot to me, given me so many unnecessary panic attacks, but most of all, I've disappointed myself for never giving myself the credit I deserve for everything I am doing. When I catch myself thinking these types of thoughts, I force myself to take a step back and focus on everything I am instead of all the things I'm not. Because I am loved, there's nothing wrong with me, and I am doing enough. Focus on all of the things that are true instead of all the lies your mind keeps telling you.