I have always had a tough time saying no. My whole life I have been living as a means to please those around me. However, I have learned my lesson. I can’t keep doing things for people who don’t value the essence of our friendship. It is time I learned how to cut people out of my life, for my sake and sanity. I have come to my breaking point and I can not keep being manipulated. I have always valued my friendships wholeheartedly. I always put so much care and effort into them, but needless to say, I got nothing in return.

Some friendships can start off amazing, and then out of nowhere turn utterly toxic and truly restraining. It pains me to say that our friendship has become too toxic to continue. The memories we had will reign as some of the greatest experiences of my life and trust me the hours of deliberating my feelings haven’t made this situation any easier. The pain of letting you go will haunt me, but the fact of the matter remains that if I want to live my life to the absolute fullest, you cannot be a part of it.

How did we end up at this point, when just a few months ago we were sharing countless laughs? I wish I knew.

But I don’t.

All I know is where we used to be and how things have changed. Becoming your friend was one of the most relieving and joyous experiences I’ve been privileged to have in my life. I had never had a friend that was so special. But, you betrayed me. You made me realize that you were never truly my friend. I gave my heart and soul to help you succeed and make you happy, and unfortunately, my life began to disintegrate because of it. Nonetheless, you taught me so much.

You knew how to keep things fun and free-spirited. I admired these traits so much, but over time I began to see your true colors. I love being challenged, yet having to constantly calculate your every move to be around someone, is draining. It got to a point where I felt like being around you entailed being less me, being less vibrant, shining a little less, and dimming my glow. It caused me to compromise myself for your pleasure. This was not healthy. It was not a friendship I wanted to be a part of.

A good friendship always comes with the ability to make each other better, but a great one requires unconditional support and understanding, which you were incapable of giving.

Ultimately, you made my happiness and deteriorate. I felt like I was unable to be restrained any further.

You are an amazing person who exudes so much strength. Your positivity is one of the things I will always admire about you. I hope to take your sense of strength with me wherever I go. I intend to look back upon our friendship fondly, remembering the good times we had.

I cannot stress enough how wonderful of a person you are, inside and out. Unfortunately, you are not my person and I’m not yours. As much as I thought we were, our friendship became too toxic to work. So with that, I am saying goodbye. Thank you for the countless laughs. The late night talks. Thank you for everything.