I wrote an article like this a while back (click here to read it). Yes; I'm still writing about how I still love you deep down inside and how I wish things hadn't ended the way they did. Hell, I wish they didn't end at all. But what good just wishing do now? It can't bring you back. It can't reverse things. All it does is make it impossible to move on.

Things have been different since I've written that last article. How? I finally did it; something I honestly thought I'd never be able to bring myself to do -- I deleted you off of every social media account. It was undoubtedly one of the hardest things I ever did. We had so many memories together. We grew up together. We were best friends from the first day of kindergarten until the third year of high school. How can I just let you go like that? How do I let go when you gave me so much to hold on to? I wish I knew.

So this is the start of me letting go; not completely, but it's a start. My mother always tells me "out of sight, out of mind" so that's what I'm hoping will happen with you. I sure as hell can't let go with you still on my screen. I can't let you when I see a photo of you and think back to a time when I saw that face everyday in person -- back when things were good. It's way too painful. Memories are painful.

What truly made me want to change were my dreams. Sigmund Freud said that dreams are an extension of what you feel in your subconscious, so when someone or something shows up in a dream a lot, it often means something deeper. I couldn't stop dreaming about you. Even in my sleep, my mind was fixiated on you. I couldn't get away from you. That's how I knew that I needed to change.

And here's the thing about change -- it's uncomfortable. It hurts. It hurts for a while then suddenly, it's the best thing that ever happened to you. That's what happens. Allow it. Let yourself feel the discomfort. Don't be afraid of discomfort. Embrace it. That's where the healing begins.

So here's to new beginnings. Here's to change. Here's to learning to be okay without you in my life; in person or on screen.