To my toxic person,

I want to start out by saying that just because you were toxic to me does not mean you will be to everyone you meet. We did not mesh and trying to force a bond between us only made matters worse. I also want to say that toxic does not mean bad. You are by no means a bad person. In fact, you are a great person. You always have been, and always will be a great person, just not for me.

So, what made you toxic you ask? I spent every second of our friendship feeling like I was on cloud nine. The entire time I felt as if I were on some sort of high only to realize you were slowly tearing me apart. This feeling I had was bound to fade away eventually, and when it did, I was too far gone to be saved. This is when you, the toxic, realized what you had done, and stepped back, watching me fall apart completely.

I do not blame you for this. You, just like me, did not realize what was happening. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. Every person that enters our lives is either a lesson or blessing, you being the former of the two. This is why I want to say thank you. Thank you for being a lesson. You taught me so much more than I realized initially, and I am glad you did.

In my time with you, I learned not to see the world through rose-tinted glasses. I did not always do this, only in certain cases; our friendship being one. When I looked at you, I only saw the good. I saw the part of you that would talk to me for hours, make me laugh until my stomach hurt, and give me the advice I needed to hear, not necessarily what I wanted to hear. While these were all good qualities, they caused me to ignore the bad.

I failed to see the part of you that was manipulating me. The part of you that was only using me to get what you wanted. I created in my head a vision of you that was perfect. You were everything I thought I needed when in reality I needed none of you.

You put me in a place I had never been before, and I never want to go back to. I had so much anger and sadness because you left me feeling abandoned. You left me feeling I wasn’t good enough because the person I felt so connected to, was only tearing me apart.

It is only because of all these things that I am the person I am today. That is why I’m saying thank you. If not for you, I would still be the naïve young girl I was while I was with you. I would still only see the best in everyone and everything. I would fail to realize that sometimes things are not perfect.

Thank you. Thank you for helping me grow up, and realize how this world really works.

Thank you for being my toxic person because it’s exactly what I needed.

So, goodbye toxic. I may not need you anymore, but I still thank you.