Dear Ex-Best Friend,

I hope you’re doing well. I forgive you for how you made me feel, but if I ever saw you again this is what I would think of.

I would think of how it all began, we were both young and had the world laid out right in front of us. We never had a care in the world about anything. Anything we would be doing together would make me happy and I remembering having so much fun. From the countless sleepovers, mall trips, our deep conversations, and so much more. I would never forget it, and I knew you wouldn’t either. I mean how could you? 8 years of memories couldn’t just disappear. Having you in my life was something I took value of and it was something special to me.

At the age of 15 we entered high school, nervous as ever. It wasn’t as nerve wracking knowing I had my best friend since 6th grade by my side. We were ready to take it all in. Thinking about the high school boys, school dances, late night study sessions, and even graduation. I remember being so excited to be experiencing it all, especially with you. We all know being in high school isn't easy sometimes. Things may not go as planned or it isn’t what you expected nor hoped it to be. But when things got hard, you were there. I can’t thank you enough for that. Slowly as high school was coming to an end I realized something, we were both different people. Having to maintain so many different things can be hard. We slowly stopped seeing each other as much. We both weren’t hearing from each other as much. When things started getting hard again, you weren’t there. That’s what had changed. Then suddenly I felt the world closing in on us.

I wish we both could have both tried harder to make this friendship work, and I think you know that. No one is here to blame anyone of anything, because I think we both expected things to turn out differently. For now I will just have to hear from you by other people, because I do still talk about you and ask about you. I truly do wish the best for you. I want you to succeed at life, and I know you will. As hard as it is to have you not in my life, I think sometimes that’s what might be best. Even if it is just for right now. Everyone needs the chance to grow and change. I just hope that someday we can meet again, and if we do, you know what i’ll think of.

Ever since a young age, people warned you on what it would be like to get broken up by a boy or to lose the boy you were oh so in love with. Nobody warned you on what it’s like to lose a best friend. And for that, I wish someone would have.