It's been a long time of processing and overthinking along the way and it finally feels like it's the right time.
I finally find myself able to say thank you - for being a self growth experience and now a memory that I'll cherish for a lifetime.
You did me wrong and you left me hurting. It took a while for me to find the place where I am today. Not because you manage to fail me but because I can't see where things went wrong.
For one reason or another we decided to part ways, and though it felt once too painful I can realize that it was the best decision we could have made. We have learned to grown individually without sharing our sorrows and happiness. We both manage to prioritize ourselves first and regardless as to how painful it was, we walked away from each other's lives.
Today, I can finally look forward and look back with no grudges against you, and put aside any negative thoughts that used to come up in my mind. I can put aside what felt wrong and the things that were said, and finally realize that you were an important lesson for me. I can now substitute all of these with the beautiful moments we shared- I've forgiven you. So for that, I thank you.
Suddenly, what could've happened between us became a goal that was put aside. We had plans with no due date. It pained me -- but as I write this, I'm finally able to process everything and see that I'm best without you now. Because even though it was hard to let go, you taught me a very important lesson -- that no matter how much you love someone or something, it must be let go off, if it only harms you. I learned to put myself first.
The thought that you were once so important haunts me daily because I have too many things to look back at. It still feels surreal but destiny had it figured out for us and what we thought was a never ending friendship turned out to be over,and our time was nothing but limited. We shared laughter as well the moments we were crying our eyes- which also meant landing a shoulder to lean on as well. We went through times that were so precious to us and shared secrets that were only meant for our ears. We saw each other grow and it was beautiful.
And though you're no longer present in my life, you will forever be the memory that comes up in my head at least once a day.
For this and for what you unconsciously did for me....
I, Thank you.
