To The Boy Who Didn't Value Me | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Relationships

To The Boy Who Didn't Value Me

I won’t settle for mediocre or your half-assed, only-when-it’s-convenient “best.”

3415
To The Boy Who Didn't Value Me
Pixabay

Dear Boy,

 

I gave you too much credit. I put you on a pedestal. I praised you for everything you did right, and even when you did me wrong, I gave you the benefit of the doubt because, “he doesn’t mean to be this way, he’s just been hurt so many times.”

 

Before you, I had never been in love. I didn’t date much because I was waiting for someone who truly valued me. You see, I know what it’s like to appreciate someone; and when I found you and got to know the deepest parts of you, I began to fall for that. But that’s not who you are. That’s who you wanted to be. I was none the wiser because I didn’t know someone could be so manipulative. You took full advantage of my naivety.

 

You wear a mask every day. You put on a show for everyone around you. Bravo! You have them all fooled. But me? Not so much. Maybe for the first year. But then I challenged you to be the person you wanted to be. And for a while, you were that person for me. I got your best and it was lovely.

 

But when you decided you were done putting in the effort to treat me with respect and love, it went downhill quick. When you stopped cherishing me and our time together, you resented me. You resented how I made you think further than your comfort zone. You resented how much time of yours I took. You resented the effort it took to be a better person. You resented the big heart the good Lord blessed me with and my emotional nature. And it was devastating.

 

But those things are what I love about myself. I am not easily won over or impressed. I care about things deeply. I don’t want to settle for mediocre or your half-assed, only-when-it’s-convenient “best.” I want honesty. Wholeness. I want vulnerable. I want someone who recognizes that I am a prize. Someone who isn’t so insecure and threatened by the fact that I am a healthy, whole person with great things to offer that he has to try to break me so that I feel as low as he does. I want someone to appreciate that I have opinions and values. I want someone who will reciprocate the fierce, never ending love I have to give.

 

I am not a dumb girl (though some may argue that after giving you three years.) I am intelligent and passionate and have opinions and thoughts on the world around me. I am introspective. Empathetic. Always loving. Always giving. Accepting and patient and generous. My love is rare. And you won’t find it just anywhere.

 

My emotions were never yours to play with. This was always a game to you. I trusted that you would take good care of me. I gave you every piece of me, but you played me for a fool. You left me unsatisfied with a broken heart and nothing to show for the three years we spent together.

 

But I have come to terms with the truth. What I had to offer was too great for what you were willing to give back. You weren’t ready for what I was able to give you. It scared you. I wanted to grow with you. I wanted to learn and build with you. I wanted to pamper you and love you and do life together rather than against each other. Even though you showed me you weren’t worthy. I had to pick up all the pieces of me off the floor, put myself back together and move on.

 

I spent so much time wondering what I did wrong. Why I wasn’t what you wanted. Now I know that it wasn’t me at all. And what I have to offer is for someone who realizes just how stellar I really am. And that was never you.


xoxo,

The one that got away

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Entertainment

Every Girl Needs To Listen To 'She Used To Be Mine' By Sara Bareilles

These powerful lyrics remind us how much good is inside each of us and that sometimes we are too blinded by our imperfections to see the other side of the coin, to see all of that good.

146552
Every Girl Needs To Listen To 'She Used To Be Mine' By Sara Bareilles

The song was sent to me late in the middle of the night. I was still awake enough to plug in my headphones and listen to it immediately. I always did this when my best friend sent me songs, never wasting a moment. She had sent a message with this one too, telling me it reminded her so much of both of us and what we have each been through in the past couple of months.

Keep Reading...Show less
Zodiac wheel with signs and symbols surrounding a central sun against a starry sky.

What's your sign? It's one of the first questions some of us are asked when approached by someone in a bar, at a party or even when having lunch with some of our friends. Astrology, for centuries, has been one of the largest phenomenons out there. There's a reason why many magazines and newspapers have a horoscope page, and there's also a reason why almost every bookstore or library has a section dedicated completely to astrology. Many of us could just be curious about why some of us act differently than others and whom we will get along with best, and others may just want to see if their sign does, in fact, match their personality.

Keep Reading...Show less
Entertainment

20 Song Lyrics To Put A Spring Into Your Instagram Captions

"On an island in the sun, We'll be playing and having fun"

36192
Person in front of neon musical instruments; glowing red and white lights.
Photo by Spencer Imbrock on Unsplash

Whenever I post a picture to Instagram, it takes me so long to come up with a caption. I want to be funny, clever, cute and direct all at the same time. It can be frustrating! So I just look for some online. I really like to find a song lyric that goes with my picture, I just feel like it gives the picture a certain vibe.

Here's a list of song lyrics that can go with any picture you want to post!

Keep Reading...Show less
Chalk drawing of scales weighing "good" and "bad" on a blackboard.
WP content

Being a good person does not depend on your religion or status in life, your race or skin color, political views or culture. It depends on how good you treat others.

We are all born to do something great. Whether that be to grow up and become a doctor and save the lives of thousands of people, run a marathon, win the Noble Peace Prize, or be the greatest mother or father for your own future children one day. Regardless, we are all born with a purpose. But in between birth and death lies a path that life paves for us; a path that we must fill with something that gives our lives meaning.

Keep Reading...Show less
Health and Wellness

10 Hygiene Tips For All College Athletes

College athletes, it's time we talk about sports hygiene.

32100
Woman doing pull-ups on bars with sun shining behind her.

I got a request to talk about college athletes hygiene so here it is.

College athletes, I get it, you are busy! From class, to morning workouts, to study table, to practice, and more. But that does not excuse the fact that your hygiene comes first! Here are some tips when it comes to taking care of your self.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments