Dear boyfriend, best friend and the person in my life who is before anyone else:
Sometimes I may be overwhelming, texting you constantly, rapid fire with multiple texts. I cannot help that I have so much to say to you all of the time. I promise I am really trying not to text you constantly, but sometimes I miss you and send more than I should. It's because I care about you and love hearing from you.
Sometimes I get really sad for no reason. Maybe it's my period, maybe not. All times I am upset cannot be justified by that. I don't know if it's just me, but sometimes I get in this mood and feel like crying all day. Maybe someone raised their voice at me (which I am not a fan of), maybe my feelings were hurt or maybe I just do not feel pretty today. When I tell you I don't really know why I am upset, sometimes it is because I do not know how to talk about what I am feeling and most of the time, I honestly don't know.
Sometimes I just need some flowers (yellow preferably), Mike and Ikes and a kiss on the head. That's what lifts me up when I am at my worst, affection from you and shown by you through little treats you know I love.
Sometimes I get jealous, I do not like to think of myself as a jealous person, but sometimes it's hard not being able to be with you all the time and watching other girls get to. It works me up a bit. Not because I think you would ever cheat on me, I trust you too much to think that, but because you are so stinking handsome and it kills me that other girls get to see the cute way you laugh or your giraffe collection. But it's not your fault that girls are going to like you, and I do not blame you for that. I just get jealous and I need you to give me patience and support when that happens, because I trust you and I really need you to remember that.
Sometimes I too will have friends of the opposite sex. I know that is hard to see and view as acceptable at some times, but I never do anything to hurt you. They are no you, no one else can be as incredible as you. I hope you can understand that I mean no harm, and that having a few guy friends is okay as long as boundaries are not overstepped. I would expect nothing less of you.
Sometimes I just have this need and desire to see you! You make me the happiest, and just being around you rocks my world. I am sorry if this happens to often or too much, I just frequently want to see the person who makes me laugh until I can't breathe and I am crying, the person who will sing songs to me when he doesn't know the words and will cheer me on in everything I do, even when I fall down the steps.
Sometimes I will complain about not seeing you enough, but can I just say it feels like no time is ever enough. By saying this I do not mean to offend you or make you feel bad, I just constantly wish to see you more. Life with you by my side is just so much better.
Sometimes I can be a literal female dog. I don't know what happens to me, a switch is flipped and I am sassy, unhappy and wild. I sincerely apologize in advance for the times in which this happens, sometimes I just feel things more than usual. A dead squirrel on the side of the road can make me mad at whoever hit it, not getting to eat Ben & Jerry's on a diet can make me bawl, and that pretty girl staring at you can make me nuts. I am sorry. There's just a little piece of me, one percent of me that just gets these moments and feels everything. The best thing to do is to hold me and not let go for a while, and I will be just fine. I am working on myself and trying that, but it won't come easy.
Sometimes I am trying to lose weight, working out like crazy and eating healthier than normal. At these times, I need you randomly telling me how good I look, saying how proud you are of me, random talks about how I don't need to be doing it but that I look good. All things that you do, amazingly. So other boyfriends, step up. Thanks for being such a big supporter and role model in my life.
Sometimes I call other people my best friend on social media or in public, but really it's you. You are the person who knows the most about me, better than I know myself. You're my person, so don't get offended if I call you my best friend and let it slip with someone else, you are my number one.
Sometimes all of these things will happen, but I need you to remember that, all the time, I love you. You mean the world to me, you are my world and universe. You make me so very happy and I want to remain by your side for as long as you'll have me.
Love always,
Your Crazy Girl Friend
