No matter how many times we’ve argued, days giving each other the silent treatment, or fought to the death over even the slightest things, one of the biggest downsides of going away to school is saying goodbye to a sister. Regardless of age or how close you are when you’re home, you can’t deny that once you’re miles away, something inside of you shifts when you’re separated from the only other person that was born and raised right by your side. Living day by day without my sister has only made me love and appreciate her more and this is my letter to her for when I can’t be there.
To my sister back home,
I want you to know that one of the hardest things about college is not growing up beside you when I’m gone for months at a time. Missing the big moments like birthdays and first dates never gets easier. But even missing the smaller things like not being able to help pick out your outfits or just being there when you’ve had a bad day is just as hard.
I want you to know that I would kill to be there to hug you when a guy screws you over or be in your corner when a friend hurts you. And I wish I could be there to stick up for you when you fight with mom and dad. I realize I take for granted just hearing about your day, or even fighting over who ate the last of the brownies or leftovers. I hope one day you’ll understand how much you crave normality and comfort when you no longer have it, which is something that I always had growing up with you.
I want you to know that believe it or not, I miss sharing clothes with you even when you take my favorite shirt without asking and smuggle it into your closet. I miss going out to lunch, or going shopping, or going on Dunkin runs whenever we could. I regret not spending even a second more of time with you while I was home -- things that I wish I could’ve known before I left.
But most importantly, I want you to know that I’m always a phone call away. No matter how busy I am, I promise to never be too busy for you. Even if you FaceTime me in the middle of a really good nap, family will always be first. And before you know it I’ll be home to make each other miserable, watch movies, or just be a friend and a sister whenever you need me.
