Everyone’s college experience is different, some enjoy it more than others, but we will definitely have something to remember for the rest of our lives. When we are younger, we don’t focus too much on how we want our experience to go because at the time we are more worried about graduating high school. This is a letter to my old high school self, telling her how much things changed since I was in high school.
Dear high school me,
First of all, I know how excited I was to get into college because ever since I can remember I dreamed of leaving home and finding my own path. By the time I became a junior my whole mentality completely changed because I went through a lot in the past two years. Remember how I was so sure life was going to be amazing, well maybe I should’ve thought twice. Freshman year was not the best, I met a certain person I now regret meeting and all that is left are nightmares and yes I went to counseling for that which seemed to help a little, but most days I wake up angry at myself. Remember how I was so sure I would get straight A’s in every class, it didn’t happen at least the first two years because I was dealing with everything at once. Mom and dad got divorced the summer before sophomore year and well the relationship with them sucks, I don’t see or talk to them and I have no family anymore or at least that’s what it feels like. I guess the whole plan of leaving home and having my own life became real and now I am completely on my own. The only perk I have at the moment is that I live with my boyfriend, but honestly everything is moving too fast that sometimes I need to take a break. Going to a counselor helped a lot, they were able to help me clear my mind and figure out what I had to do next. I am so close to graduating and I can’t wait just like when I was in high school. The biggest question I ask myself every day is if no matter what has happened to shape me into the person I am today, am I still unconsciously trying to go away? I am soon graduating and I need to continue on with the next stage of my life, I think hard of every move I need to do in my last two years in order to be an outstanding citizen of society. There are days where I don’t want to get up, but I push myself because depression is no fun and since there is no one to help me through it I have to be there for myself. I think a lot of my old high school self, how excited I was at that time to get to college and have the best time of my life, so far I have made some memorable moments, but there is also a lot of issues I’m dealing with every day and I guess that is just the part of growing up. If I could go back in time I would tell myself that whenever I go to a party I should stick with my friends it will save me a lot of trouble, most importantly focus on school because at one point in my life I will want to be a functioning adult. Lastly, enjoy my time in college it will only be a once in a lifetime thing and I will miss it when I am an adult full of debt. Just relax and enjoy life don’t let any problems bring you down because they are only temporarily.
Sincerely,
Me
