I remember the day I found out I was going to have a little brother like it was yesterday. I was devastated. I did not want you; I wanted a baby sister. I burst into tears in the doctor’s office when I found out I was going to get stuck with you. I cried so much that Mom and Dad said if I would just stop crying they would let me name you. I obviously stopped crying. I thought that was the coolest thing ever; I get to name my little brother.
When you got old enough to sit in your bouncy seat for extended periods of time things got rough. If I even looked your direction you started screaming. It sucked. You absolutely hated me, and at that point, I kind of hated you too. The entire family was focused on you instead of me, and I was not having that. I was the princess, and nobody was going to take that away from me. The jealousy was intense. I guess I eventually learned to live with it because I never tried to give you away or get rid of you.
As time went on, you never wanted to leave my side. It drove me insane. I wanted nothing to do with you anymore. I wanted to pretend like you didn’t exist, but you made that really hard. You were always getting into my stuff and it made me so mad. But I eventually got over that, not to mention that you bit me at least once a week. You drove me absolutely insane.
Now you are in your teenage phase; I wish I could go back to the elementary school kid. But that’s not who you are anymore. You are growing up and it really scares me. This is a cruel world, and I never want you to have to suffer from some of the things of the world. I wish I could protect you forever, but you are at the point in your life where you have to begin to make your own decisions. You have to grow up, and I hope you’ll be everything that you want to become.
In the process of becoming whatever it is you want to become, you will experience failures. And that will never be easy, you can trust me on that one. Those failures will break you down, but you have to choose to let them build you up in the end. Learn from the trials in your life and let them make you a better person.
Heavenly Father will never throw anything at you that you can’t handle. He knows us each individually, and what we need to become a better person. Always remember that when life gets hard you can either choose to let it make you stronger, or you can let it crush you. I hope you choose to let it make you stronger.
I wouldn’t want to be stuck with anyone else.
Love,
Your Big Sister
