It has been a little over two years since we have graduated high school. I still have dreams about the way you and your friends treated me. I still remember the pain that I felt every day I walked through the doors that felt like hell. I will never forget how you treated me.
You chose to treat me like I was worse than dirt. To this day, I still do not understand your reasoning for how you treated me? Was it because I did something wrong that I am unaware about? Is it because you were bored? Is it because you were insecure so you had to make someone feel bad to feel good about yourself? Whatever your reason is, I probably still will never understand.
I want to say for everything you have done to me, that I hate you, but if I said that I would be lying in a way. You made me feel completely worthless, but without that, I would not appreciate the confidence that I have now.
Without your mean names that you called me, I would not appreciate the amazing things my friends say about me. Without the hell you put me through I would not be as conscious about the way I treat people.
Most importantly, without you. I would not have gone to away to college. You made my life such living hell to the point that I could not be in that town any longer. You are the reason, I got out of there. So thank you for that. Thank you for giving me my lowest days because now I appreciate my greatest days.
At this point, you would think that I hope that you go through what you put me through, but I don't wish that upon you, I do not wish that upon anyone.
My final words for you are, thank you. Thank you for making my life living hell, thank you for all of the names, thank you for the constant tears, the anxiety I had every day I walked through the high school doors, and thank you for making me feel like I was worthless. Thank you for all of these things because I recognize now, those were never true. Those days where I felt like absolute garbage are completely in the past now. The people in my life now amaze me every moment of every day. I would not appreciate those as much if it were not for you and your vicious words, so for that thank you.
