Dear You,

We were both young when we met. I didn't like you, boyfriend wise, till I heard you sing. You knew music was the fastest way to my heart and you proved to me everyday that I was deserving of love. That was, until you proved you weren't deserving of my love.

I never doubted you liked me. We'd been friends for a while. You taught me to love even if the love I was receiving was fake, but I didn't see it till I fell too far for you. There are a lot of words to describe exactly what you did but I, to this day, haven't found a word perfect enough to describe the way you hurt me.

During our courtship, we bonded. We had movie marathons with my best friend and I let you see a side of me that I honestly didn't know existed. You brought out the blushing and butterflies in me that I didn't know I had. You brought me thousands of feelings a girl of 15 shouldn't have to deal with from a boy who was just using her.

Using me as a cover was one thing but being dropped on my butt for my own little brother was just cruel. I spent two months trying to do everything to get you to kiss me or hold me the way I saw in romantic films but that was just horrendous.

I was horrified. But now, I'm not. Now I understand why you did what you did. I will never condone what you did but I get it. He wouldn't have gone with you so you made the decision to use me to get to him. I used to hold a lot of hate for you in my heart but you were a confused, young, teenage boy. Nobody around you taught you what to do in that situation and for that I apologize.

One day I'll be able to look at you without being disgusted about what I loved about you. One day I'll learn that you were in love with someone, but it wasn't me and I'll be happy for you. I'll be able to walk into a room you are in and see that you don't hate me, but until that day, here is some advice; don't you ever make a girl fall head over heels for you when you're really looking to get with her brother.

Sincerely,

The girl who's heart you put in a blender on puree mode.