It took you seven months to realize the mistake you made. Seven months ago you took my heart, dropped off the planet, and broke it into pieces. Now, seven months later, you have the audacity to come back. What could you possibly have to say?
When I told my girls that you were back they stared at me with blank faces. They knew how deeply in love I had fallen with you, what you did to me, and watched me struggle every single day after you left me.
They asked if I missed you even after all this time had gone by, but I didn't know how to answer. Of course I missed you. I dedicated all of my life to you every single day for such a long time. How could I not? I miss the way our bodies would fit together, I miss pigging out and watching Netflix until we couldn't keep our eyes open. I miss the way you used to look at me, and the feeling I got every time your lips touched mine. Of course I miss you, but not enough to forget what you did.
To my ex who thought he could come back,
It sucks that you probably won't even understand why this is a big deal. To you, it's "just a friend request" (insert eye roll here), but to me it's so much more. It's seeing your name pop up on my screen when I had told myself for so long you were never coming back. I worked so hard to convince myself I was over you, that things were going to be okay without you, that it was going to get better. It was so hard to accept that you were able to wake up one morning and throw away everything I thought we had together, but you did and that was that. No second chances, no changing your mind. You were gone and I was heartbroken.
What your intentions are I may never know, but I do know this: as much as it is going to hurt me to turn you away, to act like I don't want you to hold me in your arms while I cry, I forgive but I never forget. You can't come back into my life because unfortunately I will always be better without you. I love you and probably always will, but I have slowly but surely learned to love myself more and that is all I will ever need. So thank you for the confidence booster, I am truly flattered, but I must decline your invitation.
Sincerely,
The one who got away
