There are so many times I wish I could pick up the phone and call you, or text you, or even facetime you, but I know I can't. I know we ended not on the greatest terms and I have to say I still wish things were different. I know they say you go to college and meet your friends for life and I wish that was true for us. We may not have been friends for years, but honestly, that doesn't matter. You were one of my first true, real friends--or so I thought.
I'll never forget how we met and I'll never forget all the amazing, fun times we had. You were one of the first people I could truly be myself around; you taught me that it didn't matter what anybody else thought as long as I was happy. You were there for me during the highs, especially the lows, and you always knew what to say to cheer me up. Whether we were going out or hanging in our dorms stuffing our faces with food, we always had a good time. I could never hate you; it just really sucks how things turned out.
I know I wasn't the greatest at times and didn't come around sometimes--I'll be the first to admit that--but I always tried my best to make up for it. No one is perfect. However, in all honesty, I was hurt by how things ended and I tried my best to keep our friendship, but what I finally realized was that you can't make someone stay who doesn't want to stay.
We went from constantly being around each other and texting to barely seeing each other, only in passing. It sucked. I think it sucks even more because I had to sit by and watch it all slowly slip away and there was nothing I could do to save it.
You made new friends and that was amazing, even though I was jealous at times for not being included. I was happy for you, even if it didn't come across that way, which I am truly sorry about. I just wish that we could've stayed friends.
I could never hate you, or even speak badly about you, but I will still never understand why you dropped me as a friend. I guess I'd just like to say I am sorry for not always being the best and that I truly do miss you.
I hope you are still living life to the fullest and I truly hope you are so happy. To my ex-best friend, I'll always miss you and I hope someday things can be different.
