Dear Mom,
First off, I wanna say that I miss you. I miss coming home every day and seeing you there waiting for me. I miss your hugs, your smile, and your laugh.
It's been a few years since you passed and it still feels like it was yesterday. I wanna apologize for how I was as a teenager. You didn't deserve that side of me. I know you're probably laughing saying "Oh I was the same at your age" but it still doesn't change the fact that I should have treated you better. I should have appreciated you more.
I wish you could have seen all the things I've done, in person. I know you're looking down over me but, I still wish I could have you here in person for everything. I know that makes me selfish but, who doesn't want their mom for to be there for everything. Not just for me but for my brother. I know you'd be so happy that I'm in college, and that I'm getting good grades, and that I'm working full time as well. Overall, I know you'd be happy to see that I'm happy and that I'm going for my dreams.
It's not fair that you're gone. There will never be a time when I think it is fair. Seeing everyone else with their moms, happy, just makes me miss you more. I'll never understand why I had to lose you but I've learned to understand what life without you is like, and it doesn't compare to having you.
I'm thankful, though, thankful for the time I was blessed to have you. Other's have stepped up and been a mother to me. Although they could never take your place or would they want to, I'm thankful for them.
Even though you're not here you have taught me many things. You have taught me about loss, about appreciation, about independence, about faith and about love. Those are lessons that no one else could have taught me. For that mom, I thank you. I can only hope the lessons continue, and that you will continue to look down on me. I will love you forever and cherish our memories.
Love,
Your Daughter
