First of all, I am not writing this letter to get back at you, or to get your attention. I am writing this for me. So I can get the closure I never got from you.

I was always told guys weren't worth it. That I settled for jerks who didn't deserve me and I shouldn't trust them. You know who told me that? You. And you were right.

I remember the day I met you, we became friends right away. As the years went on I became to love you as a person, and eventually my best friend. You were always there for me, and I was there for you. I would laugh when people asked if we were dating because it was like asking if I was dating my brother. Yeah I had thought about it off and on, but you meant too much for me to jeopardize anything. And I needed your friendship more.

Then something changed. We changed. I guess that's what's supposed to happen when you grow up though right? But I changed for the better and you, you became the person you told me not to fall for. A user. A selfish user who somehow convinced me to be with you and fooled me into believing I was the one person you would never hurt.

I had just started college and left you back home. But then you ended up leaving me. And you never looked back. I didn't know I could ever feel so empty. So ashamed and betrayed. So heartbroken. I had never really had my heart broken before. And then it happened by the only guy I trusted in this world. You.

That's the worst part about all of this. I'm used to guys hurting me, that I can handle. But you were my friend. My best friend. You knew about my boy problems, family issues, and personal struggles that no one else knew. Because that's how much I trusted you. That's how much I loved you. I grew to know your friends like my own and you were welcomed by my family. By the way you didn't just hurt me, you hurt my mom. And that is unforgivable.

It's taken over a year (and a lot of Taylor Swift) for me to climb my way back up from how hard you knocked me down. And I'm embarrassed to admit I still think about you way more than I should. But how do you do that? How do you just move on from someone who meant so much to you? Clearly it's possible. You did it.

You will always be the guy who broke the person that loved you the most. And I'm sure I'm not the last girl you will leave feeling this way. And while that's sad, you did it to yourself. And me? I'll be okay eventually. I'll be stronger, happier, and better than i was before I met you. So for that I'd like to say thank you. Even though you don't deserve it.