As I prepare for my last year at Curry College, I realize that I am getting old.
I've never felt so old in my life, actually.
It's terrifying thinking that I will soon be a real adult, like working a real adult job or going on to Graduate school kind of adult.
I do not feel ready at all to leave Curry College.
As I enter my last year at Curry College I remember moving into my freshman dorm. I was the first person to arrive on campus. I was so early that the sun had barely started to peak out. I was so excited to start college, it was truly a dream come true.
As only the second member of my entire family to go off to college and the first member to live at school, that moment of going to college was surreal. I remember unpacking all of my things, setting my room the way I wanted it, decorating, realizing I had brought way too many clothes, but hanging them all up in my closet anyway. I remember my mother crying as she left me there to live on my own for the first time in my entire life. To fend for myself and mature.
The feeling of independence grew, I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, I got ice cream at 3 am on more than one occasion. I had even stayed up all night drinking with friends for the first time as I attended my first ever college party.
I remember my first day of class. I was so nervous, I felt completely unprepared, but I wasn't. I was more than ready for what lay ahead.
I began to love school so much that I started taking winter and even summer courses so that this amazing feeling of pride and intelligence I felt from going to school never ended. My freshman year is a year I will never forget. I would do anything to relive those moments again. I felt that it went by so fast.
Now I wish time would just slow down, I am not ready to grow up. I want to go back to my Bell Hall dorm. I want to go down the hall and knock on my neighbors door and just hang out again, have a beer and eat Doritos while we played cards against humanity, or make drunken pasta because we wanted to have a pasta party at midnight on a Thursday.
What I wouldn't do to go back to that time.
Going into my senior year is saddening. As I leave a year early I feel saddened that this amazing college feeling won't last forever. Granted I still make drunken pasta on Thursday but it isn't the same.
As a tip to incoming freshman, hold on to your freshman year, take it slowly, because when you become an old senior like me you'll miss everything about freshman year.
To my fellow seniors, I am sure you feel the same way as I. You may not know where your future lies and that's okay. Take your time and enjoy your last year, make this a year you will never forget.
To my sophomore and junior friends, you have time. Enjoy it now! Realize that college is important and try your hardest, but do not forget to enjoy some time for yourself.
Don't try to rush through it like me.
If you have no clue what you want to do in life or even what you want to do after college do not worry. We all get confused and stuck sometimes.
Just enjoy the moment.
As we start college again in two weeks, walk onto our beautiful Curry College campus and take that moment in. Whether it is your first day of freshman year or your last first day of college remember that this is now but not forever. So enjoy your college experience. Experience everything you can.
Make this year a year you'll look back on in 60 years and tell them to your grandkids, who will probably make fun of you for making drunken pasta on a thursday night at midnight, since you'll be so old you'll go to bed at 7 p.m.
Take this moment in now and make this year a year you will be proud of.
Lots of love,
A College Senior.
