I would like to start this off by saying that this is in no way an effort to bash you nor is it me trying to air all of our dirty laundry. I want to thank you for the time that you gave me on and off for the past few years.

Thank you for always being there to pick me up when I was down. Thank you for always being up for anything, whether it be an adventure or it be staying in and binge watching Netflix. We even had a system where we would take turns paying for food. Our friendship was effortless. Until it wasn’t.

I wish I knew all the words to say to you to make it okay that we drifted apart, but I don’t. I can’t even wrap my mind around the fact that we don’t speak anymore. I’m sorry that I am no longer the person that I needed to be to be your friend. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me to be. But among all the things that I am apologizing for, I am not apologizing for doing the things that I needed to do to keep my own happiness.

I guess I am a main reason why we are no longer friends, but I will never apologize for choosing myself over somebody else. Maybe we were never meant to be friends for as long as we had hoped and that's the reason we grew apart. Maybe our friendship wasn't as strong as we had once thought it was and that's why it couldn't withstand the new person in my life. I could list "maybe"s all day long, but I swore to myself and to you that this would not be negative.

You were once the most important person in my life, but I guess time changes things. I would like to think that our friendship didn't end on a bad foot, but I know that you think otherwise. I wish things had turned out differently but I know now that that isn't possible. We were bound to grow apart for some reason or another, I'm just sorry that it ended so soon. Last summer you were my entire world, and we could've sworn this summer was going to be exactly the same. But here it is halfway through the summer and we haven't spoken in months.

People ask me about you often. When they ask me how you've been I always politely tell them that we don't really talk much anymore, but that's not entirely the truth. We haven't said a word to each other in months and it seems so weird to me because we used to talk everyday. But again, I guess it just wasn't supposed to last forever.

I'll forever be sorry that we are no longer friends, but I will never be sorry for the reason why. I am not apologizing for letting myself be happy. There is no use in being bitter over the situation anymore, because I know that it will do me no good, but please know that I do think about you everyday.

Maybe one day I will be able to honestly tell people that you're doing great because I'll know firsthand again. I know that today isn't the day, but I just wanted to let you know that you hold a special place in my heart.