Dear *Insert Name Here*,

It’s been months since we last spoke and you told me our relationship was unhealthy for you. It has taken me this long to come to terms with it all. I thought maybe a couple weeks and you would get over all of this and we would be back to normal. But weeks and then eventually months passed and not a single word from you. I guess I should have expected this, when you shut people out, you shut them out for good. I wrestled with the fact that I didn’t have my best friend any more. That in a vast world that is changing too fast, I had to bear it alone because my best friend decided she didn’t need me anymore. This letter is my Closure to you and to myself, so I can finally close this chapter and erase you fully from my life.

I am not going to lie to you and tell you I was not hurt by your departure. I was extremely hurt. Not only was I already upset with the lack of contact we were already experiencing, you up and deciding that I was no longer healthy for you really sent me over the edge. I was very depressed for far too long and I tried to replay everything in my head thinking maybe things could have ended differently. But ultimately the conclusion I came to was that this was always in our cards, ever since the day you left for UNC. I think I always knew in the back of my mind that as your college years progressed, the people who were a part of your life prior to that would eventually fade into the darkness. And guess what I was right. But ultimately I have come to terms with this because if we weren’t meant to be friends till the end, than your departure was something that was needed for us to grow and become the people we need to be.

I often find myself on your social media pages to check up on you because regardless of your decision to leave my life, I still care about you and like to know that you are happy. It looks like you are living out your dream and that makes my heart happy. It makes me happy to see you are doing so well. But part of me is bitter because I don’t get to share that with you. I don't get to be apart of everything that is happening with you. I don’t get to be apart of your life. I stop myself before I get too involved with not being apart of it because you are the one who walked away from me, not the other way around, so ultimately it's your fault I am not apart of your life. And I know you probably don’t think twice about it and that is perfectly okay with me. I really do wish you the best in all your future endeavors.

I’d be lying if I didn’t find it comical that when I post Instagram stories, your name pops up on people who have viewed it. I find it comical because it means that although you are the one who declared me unhealthy, you still have to know what's happening in my life. You probably don’t want to care, but we both know that’s just the type of person you are. So keeping looking, it doesn’t go unnoticed, and know it brings me comical relief.

One last thing I am going to say to you is this: Thank you for the friendship you gave me. Thank you for being the shoulder I needed to cry on and the confidant I needed when life got rough. Thank you for showing me my self worth and for pushing me in my faith! And lastly, Thank you for walking out of my life, you made me a much stronger person because of it and made me realize I shouldn’t rely on people who aren’t going to be there for you in the long run. So thank you for the 5 years of friendship. I wish you all the best.

Sincerely,

The Best Friend You Walked Away From