There's still some time before we meet, but there's some things I want to tell you.
From the moment you are placed in my arms, I can promise you I’ll do everything I can do make sure happiness is in your life. However, I need to be honest with you, no one is in charge of your happiness but yourself. Not me, your father, your friends, and especially not your future romantic interests (whoever they will be.) It’s all up to you, but know that we are here to help you with that.
I hope you love yourself, and it’s more than just saying that you do. I want you to mean it; I want you to be comfortable with who you are, how you look like, and who you aspire to be. Be honest, kind, but most importantly be yourself.
As harsh as this may sound, you must go through struggle to find strength. Those good days feel great because you know what a bad day looks like. There might be a time where you feel like the world is against you, or a feeling of constant emptiness. Whatever it is, I won't let you go through it alone, I will be there when you need me. If it’s 2AM please do not turn to alcohol, drugs, or pain to yourself as a solution because your demons won’t drown because they can and will swim. Instead, climb into bed and I will reassure you all will be well until you fall asleep. I want to love your 2PM and your 2AM self. Your mental health will always comes before school; your health and happiness matter to me more than the score on the top of your test. Low scores will not make me think little of you or make me love you any less, it just means that we get to spend more time together to find an appropriate solution because school is still important too.
Don’t dumb yourself down for a boy, and don’t be ashamed of loving science. One day, you’ll meet a boy or girl who will like you for you, and all those songs about love will make sense. They’ll see art galleries in you where you only saw empty walls. You’ll feel butterflies and the sound of their name will make your heart flutter, and talking to them makes you feel like it’s the Fourth of July everyday. If in case that feeling ever comes to an end, one of the most important things I will ever teach you is that pain is only temporary. Hurricanes are named after people, and you will find sense in that practice. Like hurricanes they take a great amount of healing and recovering. Take your time.
I will always love you. No matter how many times you toss the word hate or the thousands of door slams we’ll endure. You might get some personality traits from me and your father, but at the end of the day you will become your own person and I can’t wait to watch you grow.
If for some reason you never listen to whatever I say just remember this letter.
I love you,
Mom (the cool parent)
