It’s about time that we sat down and had a chat about everything you’ve kept bottled up.
Bet you didn’t think a year ago, or even six months ago, that you’d be in this situation, did you? It came as a shock to you and an even bigger shock to everyone who always thought that you’d be successful, but you have to face the facts: you were dismissed from your dream school for a semester. Let’s face it: it's because you didn’t try hard enough and you did this to yourself. It's OK, though. Everything is going to be OK. Stop blaming others for the situation that you put yourself in because it's time to buckle down and get your life together before you head back to prove yourself in eight months. Sure, Mama J was angry at first, and everyone is disappointed, but they also see the potential this has to be an opportunity for you to grow up, and that is what you need to do; grow up. It's time to get a job, grow up and commit to bettering yourself and prove to yourself and others that you can, and will, change.
I know what you’re concerned about: mom didn’t let you go back to visit your friends and go out on the first night of classes. So what? You need to stop focusing on what you want to do for fun and whip your butt into shape, and yes, I do mean also make time for the gym because you’ve let yourself go if we’re being honest. You’re back living in your parents' home for the first time since high school for a period longer than three months, and whether you like it or not, you have to live by their rules. Quit whining about it and appreciate that they’re allowing you to live under their roof while you try to better yourself and quit trying to hit up college towns all the time and instead spend a night in watching Limitless with mom. Even better, cook dinner once a week to prove to the parents that you can actually cook and it's not just a myth.
Oh, you’re worried about your relationship? Don’t be. You’re 22-years-old. You may have been hit with surprising information, but you need to stop stressing about it. You had your time to be sad about what happened and now you and your boyfriend are back to being in a happy relationship. Now may be the time of peoples’ lives that they’re looking to settle down and get married, but if that’s not your path, it's not and you don’t need to concern yourself with what other people are doing. I mean, it took you until 21 to get yourself into a relationship in the first place, so let’s not jump the gun. Also, for Christ’s sake, your boyfriend is in the military and can’t be on his phone 24/7. Calm down about not getting a text back, you know he’s busy with school, sleeping or playing the most important game known to man: League. Let the boy be.
You may not have realized it was what you needed, but your boyfriend asking you what you loved about yourself was exactly what you needed at this time in your life. You need to focus on loving yourself like others do, you need to focus on the positives and focus on getting rid of the negatives. Most importantly, focus on loving yourself and like I said, it’ll all be OK. Let’s be honest, you’re hella strong and these little things can’t take you down just yet.
Love,
Kayla
