Dear Old Best Friend,
Its crazy to think that just this time last year we were friends, we were probably texting each other about how we needed food and complaining about how much we hated our jobs. Little did we know that just a year later we would no longer be friends, you'd be off at your new job and I'd be off raising my baby working at some other job. We could go and point fingers at each other about who actually ended the friendship, but it was coming to an end no matter what. Our lives were going in completely different directions, we were growing apart and that's the true reality of it.
Losing a best friend is exactly like breaking up with someone you've been dating forever, except worse. When you lose a best friend, you're losing a part of yourself. You're losing the only other person in this world that knew you better than you knew yourself. Its not that our friendship was perfect, because it definitely wasn't, we fought and we "broke up" quite a few times before actually ending the friendship for good. The longest we had gone without talking to each other was one year. This time was different though, this time I knew we needed to end it. You had done a few things that betrayed my trust, but now looking back at it I guess I can understand your side.
It's never easy to say goodbye to someone you loved like a sister/brother. It was especially hard for me because I had no idea who I was going to text about the ending of Gossip Girl. I'm not going to lie and say that almost everyday I didn't want to text you and ask you if we could start over, because I did. I knew that in order for me to move on I had to forget about you. I think what really got to me was the fact that I went from texting someone every minute of everyday to texting no one.
The pain eventually went away and my thoughts of you did eventually go away. I've moved on and I'm happy. I do hope you've found someone you can share all of your thoughts with, whether it be a new friend or a new relationship. I also hope your career is what you've always imagined it'd be and more because I know how much you loved it. Regardless of everything, I wish you the best in all of your endeavors.
With Love,
Your Old Best Friend
