I met you in 6th grade. I thought we would be together forever. My my, was that a mistake. We started dating in 8th grade and now, we're in 11th grade. Nothing lasts forever. I always knew this would come to an end. I just wish it didn't have to.

You changed my world. You were such a jerk to be honest. I guess I fall for "bad boys". I wanted to prove to everyone that you were better than what they said about you. I could see the real potential in you. After awhile it came out. I worked so hard for you. I wanted to show you that I could give you the world. I would have if you had truly seen me for all that I am and still excepted me.

The thing is, you're still young. You don't know what you want in life, and I have to except that. Right now, you see so many pretty girls, you see that there is such a wider variety out there. I see that now. I apologize for making you stay. I knew you wanted more. I knew that things would crash and burn. It was only a matter of time.

To be honest, I feel like I'll never fully get over this. You hurt me badly. From the fighting to the cussing to the breakups. It was getting unhealthy. It was becoming toxic. I wanted to love you more than anything. I tried giving you my all. I would have done anything for you. I still wasn't enough though. Now, I'm going to have to let you go experience though. It will be better for you.

Maybe.

Thank you for all the beautiful times. I remember the first time we kissed. We weren't even dating yet. You came to the park, and we talked. You were pretty shy at first, and I was so nervous. I was thinking to myself, "wow, he actually likes me. I have liked him for so long and he is finally here in front of me." Next thing I know we are kissing. I had so many butterflies.

I remember first going to your house. It was winter time and there was snow piled on the ground. I walked more than halfway there by myself. The entire time I was thinking to myself " what are we going to do? What if his mom doesn't like me? What if his family does not like me?". I wanted to make a good impression on your family. I wanted them to love me. Little did I know, I would be part of the family. They welcomed me and treated me so well. I will forever love them. I will definitely miss them all. I became so attached, and now it's so hard to see myself getting close to another family.

I remember the first time you told me you loved me. We were at a football game. We had so much fun that night. We were walking around, and when the game finished we walked out. We went to sit on a bench outside the high school and you were just looking at me. I smiled and then you kissed me. After that kiss you looked at me, and said "I love you.". I could not believe what I just heard. He actually loves me? I told you I love you too. You smiled and we kissed again.

I don't want to lose these memories. I don't want to lose you. I wish we had more time together. I'm going to miss being weird with you, going to the drive-in, playing with your nephew, going to family event with you. I'm going to miss our long talks, our car drives, Friday nights, blasting country music, and the thing I will miss most is hearing you say, "I love you". I love you. I love you. I love you.

I hope one day you will take our relationship and remember it. I wish the best for you no matter what you've done to me.

The only thing I have always wanted for you is to be happy. I will always want you to be happy. Always.

Sincerely

Hopefully your first love.