Dear you,
I am not bitter towards you, I am not even close to bitter. I am actually thankful that you showed your true colors because now I am surrounded by nothing but love.
Two years ago, I would've never thought that things would have ended up like this. I'm not going to lie and say you didn't break my heart because you did. More than once, but that's my fault because I let you in over and over even when I knew better. For the longest time, you were all I thought about and talked about. It took me a year to get over you but it seemed like as soon as I got over you, you came right back. Every time I started to feel okay again, you came back. It's like you had a sixth sense as to when would be a good time to flip my world upside down once again. I will never understand your reasoning for leaving and coming back. I think it was because you knew I would let you back in each time. If you think I will ever let you back in, you're sadly mistaken.
I want to know, do you get some kind of enjoyment out of doing that to me? Maybe it makes you feel better to know that someone loves you like that. I don't understand how you could do that to a person. You destroyed me. The worst part of it all is you still try to do just that. You tried to come back but I didn't let you. I want better for myself, and believe me, that is not you.
I hope someday you find what it is exactly you're looking for. I hope you are happy eventually. As I said I am not bitter towards you at all. I will always have a love for you. My desire is for you to succeed in life and make it one day. Even after all of this, I still see the good in you.
I no longer want to be a part of your life. It took me a long time to come to this, but I want better for myself. Not only do I want better, I deserve better. I don't regret our relationship at all. I don't regret it because throughout these past 2 years, I learned a lot about myself. I learned that not everyone in your life is going to stay and that not everyone deserves that second or fifth chance.
I want to thank you. Thank you for breaking me because now I get to build myself back up into a better version of myself. Believe it or not, you taught me a lot of things. The number one thing you taught me is simply that things can be taken from you in a matter of seconds. Nothing is always permanent, not even love.
If you ever read this, which you probably won't, I just wanted to let you know that I am happy now. I don't need you or want you. I never will again. Of course, I will always care for you but please stay away from me.
Sincerely,
Me
