We've all experienced a heartbreak at some point in our lives. Sometimes it's just pure disappointment with someone and sometimes it's a more serious pain. No matter your situation, it's never a fun thing to deal with and I wouldn't wish it on anyone; however, it's something we all go through at some point and it never really seems to get easier either. I've definitely experienced it a time or two, but there's always that one time that sticks out the most. There's always one that just lingers around for awhile. So here's to that one.
To the boy who hurt me,
Things started off great with us. We instantly became close friends from the day we met. We got along so well and we genuinely cared about each other from the very beginning. Then, one day, things changed. We seemed to be getting closer and talking more often. This was when we decided we wanted to be a couple. We opened up to each other about everything and we became even closer than before. We were so inseparable for awhile that if someone saw one of us, they expected the other to be right behind. Things were great between us. We were so happy and it stayed like this for awhile.
Unfortunately, one day things changed again. You grew distant and you promised everything was fine, but that was a lie. Deep down you knew everything wasn't fine, but you let me believe that it was anyway. Eventually, things had to end and I was left heartbroken. I spent weeks wondering what I did that could have possibly made you change your mind about us. Everyone told me that you were going to make the decisions you wanted to no matter what. They said that I shouldn't be blaming myself or thinking I did something wrong, and they were all right.
One day, I woke up and I realized that this wasn't how it was supposed to be. A good friend told me that if someone didn't want to be in my life, that was their loss. I'm a strong believer in everything happens for a reason, and when I was given that advice, it made me realize that all of this did happen for a reason. I deserve someone who wanted to be in my life and would always be honest with me. This was the day that it all changed for me. See the thing is I thought I needed you to be happy, but the truth is I'm better off without you.
Don't get me wrong, I don't regret our time together and despite what happened, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. We did have a great time together and we were happy, but some things aren't meant to last forever. We taught each other so much throughout our time together and I am forever grateful for the place that brought us to each other. There is a person out there for me and for you; we just weren't meant for each other. Even though things ended on not-so-good terms between us, I do wish you the best. I hope that you reach your life goals and I would hope you wish the same for me.
So, I thank you. As strange as it sounds, I'm glad you hurt me like you did because, in the end, it actually did turn out to be good for me. It made me realize my worth. It showed me what to look for in future relationships. I now know what I deserve and how I should be treated. I would hope that you learned something about the situation also, but we both still have some growing up to do.
I would never wish this kind of hurt on anyone, but sometimes, that pain might just teach you a thing or two.