Dear Friend,
You are hurting. You keep asking me why. You never dated, and you knew getting into your ‘relationship’ that it was going nowhere. In fact you thought you could do it without feelings, but that didn’t work out. You hate that these feelings of pain and anger, and worthlessness are being exposed, but as much as it pains me to see you hurting, I am glad you are expressing them to me. You might not know why you hurt as much as you do, and I don’t either, but I can be there to give you a hug and hold you until you stop crying. I will be there to help you through this. Whether you want me to you tell you now or later, I will tell you no matter what, because you need to hear this.
You feel like crap, worthless, ugly, alone, but my dear, you are none of those. This boy, he does not, and I repeat DOES NOT determine your worth as a person. The only one who has the power to do that is God, and He thinks we are worthy of love—His and everyone else’s love. This boy, he didn’t love you like you love(d) him. You feel dumb for thinking someone like him could love you back. You think you aren’t good enough for him. But sweetie, if you are good enough for God, you are beyond good enough for a silly boy who couldn’t see all your worth.
Personally I think this boy is an idiot, but I’m not going to chase him down and tell him, because you don’t deserve him. When I say that, I don’t mean that he is too good for you. I mean you deserve someone who is going to love you back. You deserve a man who is going to love you as much as you love him. A man who is going to love everything about you. A man who isn’t going to just use you for your body. A man who is going to treat you with love, compassion, kindness. A man who will make you a better woman, and whom you will make a better man. A man who God has picked out for you and is waiting to place into your life at the perfect time. A man who you are going to have to wait even longer to see if you keep looking behind you at the man you did not deserve.
But until this man comes into your life, lean on the one who will never stop loving you. Lean on God to satisfy your need for love and self worth. Lean on me when you need a hug, but remember the LORD IS WHO YOUR STRONGEST SUPPORT NEEDS TO BE. Trust that He loves you. Trust that He has a perfect plan for your life. I pray you hold on to this hope and have faith that He will provide—all in good time. I pray you have patience in waiting out these plans. I pray you know you can always count on me. I pray you understand how loved, and beautiful, and worthy you are.
Love,
Your friend
