I've always been so indecisive whenever it came to making decisions. Hell, I still am and it sucks.

Whenever I have to make a choice on the spot, I totally freak out since I don't want to make the wrong one. The way I see things, it's important to thoroughly think before I can possibly make a logical decision. Weighting the pros and cons is something that I do often if I have the time to think things through.

However, I also think that it's crucial to be impulsive at times.

From witnessing others being spontaneous with their judgments, it shows that they know what they want, and they have enough courage to be confident with their instant decisions. They are able to be quick and seamless.

That's how I want to be.

For instance, I've been debating for the longest time on whether or not I should get my nose pierced. The debate seemed almost endless, stemming back to my junior year in high school. The idea kept resurfacing in the back of my mind. I would overthink it until I would eventually just talk myself out of getting it done.

Similarly, I've been iffy about getting a tattoo. I've looked at plenty of ideas and even considered designing my own. I told myself I would have to want the same design for about a year, even longer to confirm that it's really the one I would want for the rest of my life.

I believe that my issue intertwines with the concept of committing, the fear of not wanting to be attached to something or someone. The word permanent just gives me cold feet.

I haven't yet thought too much of one particular tattoo design, probably because I'm still afraid to face my doubts. Though, I have recently gotten a nose stud, completely shocking myself.

One day after my class, I was about to head to my usual coffee shop, but instead, I took a turn on the highway. The thought of doing something without much planning, worrying, or reflecting was stimulating.

I broke through my comfort zone, which felt great like I was going somewhere.

I don't always have to analyze everything and be cautious. I need to be more decisive about what I want, need, and should do.

I need to trust my judgments more often because when I do, I feel free.