part i: where it all started

new country, new breath of air, new me?

it's too early to tell, check back & we'll see.

six months pass & you're on top of the world

new friends, new man, new shoes, new girl!

it's Valentine's Day-- you're starry eyed & you have your hair curled

he pushes your bangs back and you feel your heart whirl.

part ii: denial, denial, denial

fast forward a few months to may 9th, 2017

I kissed him goodbye & sobbed my tears clean

for I knew that the next three months with him would be spent

talking to a screen.

part iii: a cry for help

it's three in the morning on some day in early july

things had gone sideways & we'd just said goodbye;

my heart was beating so fast I thought I might die.

"long distance sucks." you said as I said there and cried

a phrase that would come back & haunt me

as I bitterly asked God why?

part iv: i will survive

driving down the dusty streets back home one night

"I will survive-" sings queen Demi as the moon shines so bright

and these are the times I wish I could just pack up and take flight.

part v: conquerer through christ

after days of moping I pick myself up off the gravel road

thinking:

before you can be happy you're gonna have to kiss a few toads

there's no rush--

work on yourself before you can find a new beau.

& with Christ in the center, I slowly regained my

g l o w.

--eternally grateful--