Driving down to move into college was nerve racking, yet so exciting. I remember thinking how cute my room would be and how I couldn't wait to set it up. I remember being so excited because I was lucky enough I got to room with one of my best friends. Then I started thinking about my new team and how I hoped my teammates would like me and wondering if we would be close. A lot rushed through my mind in that two-hour drive. Then I started getting nervous thinking about juggling classes and softball. Basically had a mini meltdown just on the way to school. I hadn't even started yet and I was freaking out. That was freshman year....
Comparing myself now I think how silly I was being. I'm going into my junior year and I love school so much and my teammates are my best friends. It's incredible to see how much you change just in two years. Now, believe me, I don't think I'm at my limit of changing. I'm sure I still have much more to do but I feel like I really am a different person than when I started two years ago. I came in thinking I knew what I wanted to do for a career for the rest of my life... Who was I kidding? I've changed my major twice. That's just one example of how I've changed but for one second think about how much you change. I go back to school on Sunday and I couldn't be more excited. I can't wait to get back into classes, see my friends and get back on the grind with my teammates. When I go back home now I just feel like I'm visiting. I don't really feel like it's home. Although when my mom reads this, that might break her heart but I know I'm not the only one. When I go home it takes a little getting used to my parents asking me where I'm going haha. It's weird, it's like I've built my own little life at school. I do my own thing, have my own schedule, and honestly it's kind of nice. It's just strange how things change so much while you're in school.
I guess what I'm trying to say is you grow up a lot. You learn how to take care of things on your own and you figure things out. Now I'm not saying I don't call my mom for help here and there because trust me, I do all the time. Going to school is so important because it helps you find yourself. I still have a lot of growing up to do but I guess you could say the main difference between heading off to school my junior year and my freshman year is that I'm more driven because my goals are so close. I'm not scared and I'm excited for my journey because I know it will help me grow and find myself.
