Maybe it’s my female anatomy or just a part of my personality, but I can never let things go. There’s always that one person, that one incident or that one comment that someone said I can’t seem to forget. It’s hard to not let anger, jealousy, sadness or possible depression take over your life, but it does every now and then. There comes a point where I have to accept what happened, what was said or the circumstances that were thrust upon me (even if I don’t want to) and let it go.
When I say I don't let things go, I really mean it. I still remember in the fourth grade when another girl was picked for a part in the school play instead of me. To this day, I may (or may not) be a little bitter about it. I still miss people that I have drifted apart from or just feel angry at others for something they said towards me, or someone I really care about.
It’s hard to just let these feelings of sadness or anger not matter anymore because I usually have passion in whatever I'm doing, but I have to learn to not let things bother me as much. I have to accept the fact that somethings aren't worth my time. I have to learn how to move on. No matter how big a situation may feel at the moment I’ve learned that, if you take a step back, it’s much smaller. For me, taking a step back means giving something time. In the heat of the moment that comment or situation is all that matters, it’s the only thing I can think about and, in a way I obsess over it. Obsessing over my feelings of sadness or anger also turns me into someone that I don’t want to be. Someone that I don't like. I turn to hate and vengeance versus forgiveness and acceptance. However, time is the best medicine. Time heals all wounds.
For me, admitting that I am terrible at letting things go is the first step, I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s true. As the new school year is about to start, letting things be and accepting what I can’t change is a key focus. I know there will be times when I will resort to my old ways, letting the anger and sadness seep into my thoughts, but I have friends and family around me that are always here. They are here to help me, to lift me up and remind me there are more important things in life than petty people, frustrating situations and circumstances I can’t change. So, friends, I’m here to start letting things go, are you?
