The first month of the New Year has been the worst month of my adult life. I've had almost 24 months, so that's pretty high on the list. It has been absolutely horrible; one thing right after another.

I was at my breaking point around the 6th. By then my husband had been informed that a close family member was going to pass, and shortly before the place he was working at through Staffmark let all of their Staffmark employees go. Seth has been working week long jobs until he can get hired on somewhere, and that alone would be stressful enough. I'm in school, and can't work enough to pick up the lack of money. Around the time the first job ended, his family member passed. She lived in Michigan, and he couldn't attend the funeral. Plus he had to look for a job to last one more week.

Obviously money is tight, tighter than it's been up to this point in our marriage. I was panicking at first, and occasionally still am, but I always remember that God has me in his hands. I know that somehow this will work out how he wants it to, because it always does. Even in the worst of times, God has a master plan, and that is the only thing making me even remotely calm.

Why am I telling Facebook and anyone else who reads this all my personal worries right now? Because maybe you are going through the same thing. Maybe you are worried about money, or desperately need a job, or maybe you are having a bad day; but it's okay. Everything is going to be alright. Everything will work out exactly how it is supposed to, so relax a bit. Don't give up, just take a second to let God talk to you. It's been hard to sleep the past few nights, because this has been keeping me up. It's been distracting me from school. But God will send this wave of peace over me when I get too worried.

I've learned to stop planning on things, not because life will take them away, but because God will disrupt them to remind you to look to him. It's not negative, but we all need wake up calls. It's a human quality to get caught up in things, and forget to look up; it doesn't make you the bad guy, it makes you human. My favorite thing about church is that if we were all perfect, there would be no need for it. But we aren't, so we go to church to meet others in the same situation as us.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, my God is an awesome God. My plans don't matter to him, because his plans are divinely perfect. Your plans don't matter either. He uses all of us in mysterious ways, and maybe this is one of those ways.