Let me tell you how good God is. At one point in time I couldn't realize how heavy his presence was in my life. I didn't notice that through the pain and the strife he was creating a work in me that would be so unbelievably beautiful, he'd have to prepare my own eyes.
You see (like many) I wasn't ready to accept him fully. Playing games with religion, attempting to be holy when convenient; nevertheless, doing whatever I wanted hoping I'd be worthy of forgiveness.
He's oh so worthy, and I'm a sinner humbled by life's discourse and his divine favor. For a while I thought I didn't deserve it. I felt like I was unworthy of his blessings. But I see now that he is like no man. He does not hold grudges, and he will do whatever I ask, if I have faith and put it in his hands. If I just look back at my past and notice how he's always been able, making ways out of no ways then I will be able to face all troubles in these coming days. You wouldn't believe how many times he's kept my mind, when I was way past the verge of what you would define as crazy. When I'm antsy he gives me reason to sit my butt down and just listen. And that peace...
I acknowledge that I am a beautiful struggle. A hot mess dressed to impress with impressions that common sense was never a given. We can't assume there's a common understanding if love isn't the meaning of the message that you're preaching.
Everyday you have to honestly ask yourself "If I were to die today would God be happy with the life I've lived?" If God were really to come back at this moment would you be saved? If the answer is no, don't stress out. He already knows your fears and your doubts and is ready to clear them from your mind. YOU just have to make the choice. YOU have to decide to give it ALL over to him. And no matter what the world tells you, trust that he will have your best interest in mind.
I want to be the person that God would have me to be, and I know that you do too. I understand now that this will require extreme effort, control, and faith especially in this world that only wants to consume. But I am ready to take the necessary steps to be great. I am ready to be happy!
How often do you slow down to realize what makes you sincerely happy, rather than what just keeps you content.
Living in the world leads to contentment.
It was never supposed to be this way. We've been so blinded by those that we thought we could trust, to feed us some truth, but in the end you have to learn to trust yourself. You can only receive pure happiness through trusting God and following Jesus Christ. You can receive a pure joy only when you stop feeding into the ideas of the world, and solely follow the steps that God is guiding you to take.
You can do it.
