It’s that time of year again, y’all. I don’t mean Halloween, or midterms, or anything like that.

It’s mid-semester.

This is the time when I honestly, truly, desperately want to graduate. It’s the time when you either flip the hell out about your grades (underclassmen) or realize that you just don’t care anymore.

Now I’m not suggesting that I don’t care about my grades (my GPA has been lovingly maintained during my time here and I’m not trying to change that). It’s more so that you just run out of steam. Midterms are though (finally!) and the excitement that you feel at the beginning of the year is looooong gone, which means that there’s not much pushing you at the moment.

Maybe it’s just me.

But there’s something about that mid-October point that makes me very apathetic about the whole thing. What’s there to look forward to, exactly? Finals? Spring registration (okay, I’m not gonna lie, I get hype about picking my classes for next semester, just like how I still get hype about buying school supplies. I’m geeky that way.) But outside of that, I’m just not with it right now.

Like, it’s not even fun anymore. I’m a junior now, which means that all the excitement of “Wow! College!” has finally evaporated, leaving me with a dusty, lingering sense of blah that can only be alleviated through a nice looooooooong break. It also means that unlike when I was a freshman, I’m finally old enough to have *adult* problems, like paying bills, and buying necessities, never having enough money, and being extremely overworked. There’s no youthful, carefree exuberance to cut through the intense meh and/or stressed feeling.

(I’m just realizing that I am, in fact, a bitter old woman).

But it’s not alllll bad.. Halfway though the semester means that soon enough, spring semester will be here....and then senior year....and then graduation. And then, the great beyond or whatever it is that comes next, I guess.

I’m still searching for something to be excited about, though.