It seems like we spend more time stressing about what we think we should be doing instead of just enjoying our life as it is. It's important to go to college, get a good paying job, and start a family, but all of that takes time, and commitment. If you need to take a breath, and some time to yourself, that's okay too.
I just graduated college with a bachelor of science degree in psychology. I moved back in with my dad because I am 100 percent unsure of what I am supposed to be doing. I started a job at a zoo which is my absolute passion, and I am enjoying myself immensely, but I constantly feel the pressure of graduate school, and a higher paying job on my shoulders.
I'm a young twenty three year old with my life ahead of me, and so many options. Why should I have to feel this stressed out about not being ready for something more? I plan to move out on my own when my boyfriend also finishes school so that we can support ourselves, but every time I think about researching graduate schools, I get a negative block. I feel like I have to or need to more than I actually want to.
My dad cares about me and wants me to be successful, but sometimes I think that we just have to be able to try and fail a few times before we can make it. I won't know if it's what I want to do, until I'm doing it. I can sit on my laptop all day researching different programs, and I just feel more in the dark at the end of it all. It's just words on a page. I need to go immerse myself in a program to really understand what it is.
I know this is an impossible task for graduate school, but that's the only way I feel like I'm going to ever get anywhere. I need to pick something and dive into it head first. If it's not what I want, then hell I'll try something else, but sitting at home choosing and un-choosing graduate programs because my dad knocks them all down, is a fighting battle.
I don't want to sit down and try to plan my life out, I just want it to happen. I know that's laughable, waiting for everything to work itself out and fall into my lap, but I've made so many decisions in my life that haven't gotten me anywhere, and I finally want to just start doing exactly what I love for what it is. I want to forget about money, and if I'll ever have a huge house, and just think about what makes me happy. It's scary to think how much of life we are letting pass us by because we're waiting for another day to do it. The life that we are supposed to be living is happening right now. Let's go out and live it.





















