We have so much going on in our lives already, it's easy to get exhausted. We are currently surrounded with plans. It's hard to stop sometimes. We all want to keep a healthy balance between friends and school, that we forget that we just need to do what's best for us. It's hard to say no to some plans. Once you say no to something, the assumption that you don't ever want to hang out again rises. You can't take a personal days anymore without people thinking that you're depressed or that you no longer want to be associated with them.
For some, being alone seems like a nightmare. I'm here to tell you, it's not that bad. After a long day of classes, we just want to lay down and take everything in. Most of us tend to rely on a nap to get us through the next half of our day. We are so preoccupied with everything around us, we don't really get a chance to observe how we are personally doing. For one, there were days where I could not be alone. I constantly wanted to be surrounded by others. It got to the point that it was draining me.
As cliche as it may sound, being alone really helped me find myself. I took time to figure out what was bothering me and I would fix it. Slowly but surely, I found myself in better situations than before. Being in crowds, we tend to put on the persona that we believe others want to see. Being alone, you truly get to be yourself. You get to find your likes and dislikes and you form another characteristic to your being.
Now, I crave my alone time. I do love spending time with my friends and family, but sometimes it's exhausting. I'm not bitter because I want to go home early. I just had enough social time and need to recharge my energy. I just want to curl up in bed with Netflix and sleep. As much as we don't want to face it, we tend to overwork ourselves to the point that we don't remember what taking a break feels like. If we put down our phones for a few hours or an entire day, it almost feels freeing.
Don't get me wrong, If didn't have my phone on me at all times on some days, I would probably go a little crazy. But, there's nothing wrong with turning it off and indulging yourself in some alone time. Take a step back from Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram and you'll find that sometimes, all you need is yourself to find some freedom.
In the meantime, I'll be in my room watching some movies or reading, and I apologize in advance for not answering your texts. I'm not going to ignore you forever, I just need to recharge.
