I still have moments where I feel like I am not enough, good enough, pretty enough and like I don’t matter to anyone. It is so hard to turn off those thoughts that creep into my mind late at night when I can’t fall asleep, I lay awake thinking about my life. No matter how much weight, I lose, how much I see the progress on the outside, I still struggle with it on the inside. I think about every little detail of my life and go over and over it, wondering if I did the right thing in that moment and wonder if I had made a different decision, would my life have turned out differently. I have been spending more time by myself recently mostly because I have just been too tired to do anything else. I spent most of my time in my room thinking. I used to do more on the weekends but now I find myself just being by myself. The time spent by myself is good sometimes because it allows me to recharge and rest. I do that from time to time, just spend time in my room thinking, sometimes it is good and other times, it leads to the thinking that I talked about earlier. When I get into that mindset, it can take me a while to get out of it and realize that I have no real reason to think that about myself. I have friends, family and a job that I love and am growing at everyday. When I think about how far I have come in my life, I am pretty proud of my accomplishments. I am doing things at my own pace, sometimes I get sad when I see others moving so fast with their lives and I begin to feel stuck. I have come to realize that it is okay to take my time and live my life as I chose to. I am happy right now for the first time in a really long time. I do what I love to do and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Sometimes, I lose sight of that and I have to take the time to remind myself of it. A mind is a powerful tool that can really affect your mood and life, if you let it. The negative thoughts that were planted in my mind for years were hard to let go of. The emotional weight was honestly harder to lose then the physical weight. It took me longer to get better emotionally. I am still working on it. I take it day by day. I am proud of how much work I have done to become the person that I am today. I am a work in progress and proud of it. I am slowly realizing that perfection is overrated because being me is so much better.