I didn't truly realize how much you both have done for me until I left for college. I also didn't realize how many sacrifices you made for me and my siblings until I was left sitting in my room alone. I can't imagine how difficult it was to raise 3 rambunctious kids that never gave you a break. It just feels like a have an endless list of sorries I have to give.
First off, I'm sorry I didn't thank you enough.
Yes I know I thanked you for every meal you served me and everything you bought me... but that isn't enough. I feel that I just thanked you for the physical things and not the sentiments. You made that food (or ordered it in most cases) with me in mind. You bought me gifts to make me happy. I should've thanked you, Mom, for carrying me for 9 months. I should've thanked you for not giving up on me when your ankles swelled up or you had to go out and spend a fortune on maternity clothes. I should've thanked you for loving me even when I let you down in the worst ways. I should've thanked you, Dad, for giving up your time to watch me swim in every swim meet I had and driving all around town to find the soccer field that mom didn't give us to address to. I should've thanked you for being my #1 cheerleader and being my rock. I should've thanked you for being the man that set the bar for all others. So for all of that, thank you both.
I'm sorry I made you cry
Remember those nights that I thought I was far more important than the both of you and your sleep cycles? Yah... I do too. I regret them so much and cannot express to how stupid I feel for upsetting you and being so selfish. Remember those afternoons I overwhelmed you with my problems? They're so insignificant in the grand scheme of things. I'm sorry that I ever hurt your feelings or broke you down.
I'm sorry I was a smart-ass
As you both remember, I'm sure, there comes a transition in every child's life into there awkward tween/pre-teen years where he/she thinks she is never wrong. For my case, I thought this was fact for quite a few years. I soon came to learn, after those few years, that it was completely ridiculous that I could outsmart you both. You were always 5 steps ahead.
I'm sorry I made your jobs hard
You both have jobs and work long days. I'm sorry I would whine about not having enough food in the house or complain that you never have time for me. You were working to provide for us, and it's a ridiculous thing for me to expect you to drop everything and tend to my needs. I want you both to know I'm proud of everything you've accomplished and would be lucky to grow up half as hard-working and dedicated as you are.
I'm sorry I broke your hearts
There were times that I just thought that I could save my pride by hurting yours. Now I realize, you definitely did not deserve my backlash. You have done so much for me that you deserve for me never to roll my eyes at you or say terrible things that I could never possibly mean. I am so, unbelievably sorry for those times where you felt I've failed you or that you could never trust me again. I hope in the future that I can work towards having your complete confidence and trust.
I'm sorry that I wasn't always there for you
Especially now that I'm in college, sometimes I want nothing more than to come home and give you the biggest hugs I could possibly ever give. I hate to hear about your bad days and even worse experiences, but as you taught me, it all has to happen at some point. In the past, whenever you were struggling or frustrated, I'm sorry I didn't always spring to your rescue. I wish I could go back in time and try to help fix all your problems or at least make it easier.
I'm sorry that I can't convey how much I love you both
You are the two most important people in my life. Whenever I am asked to reflect on home, it's where you are. It isn't where I sleep, eat, or shower. It's where my heart is. You are my heart. When I learned about unconditional love in high school, I learned that there are 3 people in your life that love you unconditionally as soon as you enter this world: God, Mom, and Dad. I reciprocate. I love you both with my whole heart, and there is nothing you could do to make me love you less.
