The first thing that comes to my mind whenever I hear your name is “I’m sorry.” I’m sorry I loved you too much and that for once I put somebody’s needs before my own.

Eight months, that’s how long I loved you, how long my world revolved around you. My parents warned me about falling in love, for once I didn’t take their advice because never in a million years did I ever picture myself without you, much less getting hurt by you. You turned my frowns into smiles, and you made my gloomy days turn into some of the best days with you.

Now to the apology part, from the bottom of my heart I am truly and deeply sorry that my love was never enough for you. I tried everything I could possibly do to make you love me just as much as I loved you. My grandfather used to tell me, “you can lead a cow to water, but you can’t make it drink” those words are the truest words I have ever heard. I moved mountains for you, I gave you some of my last pennies, I saw you and your family before I saw my own. No matter what you wanted or when you wanted it, I tried my best so you could go without, but never did I think that in the long run I would be the one empty handed.

I hope and pray for you every night. I hope you find someone who you love just as much as I loved you, and that when you find her you never let her go.

Thank you, thank you for ripping my heart out, without that horrible heartache I would have never grown up. I wouldn’t have realized how worthy I am, you made me realize that there is so many great guys out there. Even though you’re not the guy I wanted you to be that there in fact is someone out there better than you. Thank you for being my best friend for eight months, for introducing me to the most respectable and loving family that became my home away from home. For introducing me to Chicken Express tea and going on small adventures, even though you’re no longer a part of my life I will forever cherish the thousands of wonderful memories.

You’re not a bad guy, you never were you just weren’t the guy for me. I thank God for the time we spent together and the impact you made in my life. I promised to always be there for you, that’s a promise I intend to keep. So as long as you live you will forever have a friend in me.